Ice Sculpture. 1st Place!

I try not to cry for
it's how I was raised.
so I hold it all in...
as if I was never fazed.

Nothing in life comes easily.
Life can't be put on hold.
And all I want to do is breath,
but my lungs, my heart is cold.

They've shaped me how they wanted
and they say it was out of love,
but I always feel so empty inside.
Is ice what my heart's made of?

For this is no trait inherited.
This feeling so cold in my heart...
Maybe I'm just an ice sculpture,
their cold and hollow work of art.

One day I am going to melt
or perhaps I may even shatter.
I just know someday I will break,
so what does it even matter?

OLD - Fourteen Years Father.

Recently I've turned fourteen.

Nothing seems different or new.

A part of me feels missing.

Your gone and it's obviously true.

Never have we met before,

but now I will be trying.

After fourteen years,

some long years of crying.

I always did wonder,

if you left me by choice??

I haven't seen your face,

or ever heard your voice.

I wish to seek out my father,

Just to tell him, “Goodbye."

Sorry that I left Mother,

but you know that I have to try.

Love Motivation&Inspiration

Written Jan. 2nd, 2010. 9:40pm.
For those who inspire and motivate me through life...

it really is appreciated. (:

I used to think I was living in a world of hurt,
but I have learned that if there is any love
there is nothing in the world that has to hurt.
So to take away the pain love is my choice of drug.

There were days when I felt so blinded,
but the people I love believed in me.
Sometimes you just have to be reminded
to believe in yourself and be all that you can be.

I learned you don’t have to be so afraid
if you get lost or just can’t find your way.
You’ve friends and family to come to your aid
And they’re by your side, here to stay.

Then there are days I feel I don’t deserve them.
I wonder why they bother to stick by my side,
but they’re always there and that’s alright
because one day they’ll need me
and everything I will put aside.

My friends and family are the things I truly love
and love is the drug to take away my fears.
They inspire me to go above and beyond,
but they motivate me to live through the years.